The other day, a broken blind brought me to tears.
Sometimes, what is bothering us is not obvious. This is true in all aspects of our life.
If you’ve been following this blog, you know that we have recently sold our house and are living in an apartment half its size. We do plan on buying a house again, but this place is home for now.
And then I cry over the ugliness of blinds and complain that I want curtains. Go figure.
What is the heart of the matter?
If you’ve been homeschooling, even for a few months, you know that there are days that are not perfect. In fact, real life rarely is and homeschooling is real life.
Is there something currently that seems not right? Perhaps in the curriculum or your schedule? Something that might be bothering you and leaving you irritable and feeling like it could be better or that there’s something missing. Or just making you feel annoyed?
Don’t ignore it. But don’t be eager to give it a superficial name either.
In my case, I attributed it to change. After all, moving is one of the most stressful things one can do – especially with children. I blamed the apartment for not being as perfect as our house had been.
But then I realized it hadn’t bothered me in the first or the second month. All those little things had been embraced in the past as part of the adventure.
The heart of the matter was something else – it was not the blinds. It wasn’t even “ugliness.” It was a loss of enthusiasm.
Protect What Matters
Remember what matters.
Enthusiasm is not the same as motivation.
I’m not standing in front of the mirror every morning and talking up our day. But I am enthusiastic about homeschooling because it means sharing our lives with our children.
Somewhere along the way in this move, my focus shifted and I became more concerned with “staying on track.” It became less about sharing our lives and more about making the kids “do school.”
Ugh. The heart of the matter was that I forgot the heart of the matter.
This is a good time of year to remember what’s most important. When your homeschool falls off track, when there are “emergency” baking sessions, when all you want to do is put your feet up and watch movies or relatives arrive, remember this.
Remember the heart of the matter.